

putting onall that you've "just done before" and God are you tired of required capitalizations the slew of endless, unoriginal thoughts. not getting any better, getting worse? anywhere at all.putting on
predictable dirty dishes just
fucking look at me from the sink chicken-scratch-to-do list that i'm always
getting around to.
i retreat to blankets, oversized hoodies, trying to feel small. eyes tighter
as if that might help any of this along but i can't force sleep anymore than i could cheat death; failure.
want is to des


stasis1.stasis
when i walk on the pavement
watercolor pictures paint beneath my feets
i.racetherain
mostly escaping through tiny holes
2.
midday light pours hot over my bones
my shadow is caught up on hooks
i.travellight
uncertain when i'll ever be [home]
3. a solar scar cooled in a lunar shade eyes break like glass
i.cleanupthemess
shapeless and folded beneath mismatched sheets


again again againi have been studying structureagain again again
conversations you think i cannot translate. thinking about gardens soulmates suicide. you were wondering where i went while my eyes went blank.
seems i just keep filling this sink with dirty water baskets with your holey t-shirts you keep saying stay and i keep counting days
remember that time you held my hands in yours searched my face for hers smiled. because you knew i had tried
keep saying everything repeat


Lamentseason changing shapeless between little girl fingers tie these at your waist help you stay and keep safe light pouring from the wrist and ankleLament
don't
just
stop
lost from me now shadow soundless prayers breathed out like rain does its puddles splayed along the sidewalks that lead to my door.